"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us."

-Marianne Williamson


Monday, December 2, 2013

The last sunset over the Garden of Eggen

Today is the day.  After 8 long years of trying to sell the Garden of Eggen 10 acre farm, today we sign the papers so that the new owners can have their chance to live out their dreams on our beautiful farm.

Even though we know it is our time to move on, it is with heavy hearts and many tears that the final drive down the lane will be the most difficult time leaving.  It takes me back to the first time I came to the farm.  Stan and I were friends.  We had been having lunch and when he found out that my sweet Lexie loved horses he asked us to come go for a ride.   As we saddled up and rode down the lane I reminded him that I hadn't spent much time around horses and wasn't very sure of myself.  To which my sweet cowboy husband said "Stick with me Darlin' " and so I did. 

As you read through the posts below you can see some of the amazing life lessons I have learned along the way.  This post will be picture heavy as you just have to see it to feel the beauty that this ratty little farm house can bring to our children and grandchildren and all those who come hang out in our "Garden of Eggen".


Goodbye little farm.  Thank you for all the joy you have given us.

Wednesday, June 27, 2012

NO...You can't make me go!!!

We decided to have my oldest daughter's husband take our horse AJ.   AJ is 6 and is used to people but has never been broke and never been in a horse trailer.   We thought if we got enough manpower that surely, 7 adults could surely get one gelding in a big open stock trailer...WRONG!!!

We got AJ's mom, Aspen in the trailer 1st, hoping he would follow his Mom in.  No such luck.  Oh and did I also add that my husband had just had knee surgery and I was only 2 months out from back surgery so even though we were great spectators and good at waving our arms and yelling at AJ, other than that, we were pretty much useless.   Stan did get a few good pokes in with his crutch to AJ's nether-regions but that didn't help.  AJ just plain sat down like a big kid and refused to budge.  At one point he had 3 feet in the trailer but he was so terrified he again just sat down.   After a couple of hours of this rodeo, he was getting tired and angry and I was so afraid that someone was going to get hurt, even him, that I said to just let him go in the field and we would try this again some other time.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Our latest addition to the Garden of Eggen... Paco

My sweet husband had been secretly searching KSL.com for a new horse.  Ever since Lexie was thrown off her horse we realized that we needed an older gentle horse for her to ride.  So 2 days ago we found the latest addition to the farm...Paco.

Paco is a 23 year gelding and has spent his life with a very loving owner in Lehi.  He is a trained barrel racer and is a very gentle horse.  We put him in the north pasture until he got to know the other horses.  We will move him to the south pasture today.  So far AJ is a little jealous because Lexi horse is flirting with the new guy.  He will make a beautiful addition to our herd.

Lexie loves her new horse.  The morning after we got him she was out feeding him grain before she had breakfast and the minute she got home from school she was back out with Paco.  He is very loved.  Tonight Stan rode Paco around the yard and then had Lexie ride him in the round corral.  It is the first time she has been on a horse since she was bucked off.  Paco reminds me so much of our horse Chief.  Stan had a tear in his eye as he watched our girl Lexie riding this gentle giant horse.   The chickens were running loose in the yard chasing bugs, my sweeties were hanging with the horses and I was watching with joy as the sun began to set on my beautiful farm.  Life is good!!!

Saturday, December 24, 2011

Spirit of Christmas

Well, it's Christmas Eve. I have come to be grateful for the health issues that I have had as they have forced me to slow down and only do the things that were really important. Being down has also given me alot of time for introspection. Knowing I had sinus surgery coming I made sure to get Christmas shopping done in October which was a first for me. That opened up so much physical and mental energy to focus on taking care of me and my family and letting the rest go.

As we got out the Christmas ornaments and decorated the tree, I continued my yearly tradition of opening the small fabric picture frame that I made in 1984. My favorite moment in starting off the holiday season is to slide the photos from behind the frame and lay them out watching the age progression as I added one picture every year and I saw my children as they became adults and had kids of their own. I lovingly reminisced over each Christmas time and remembered who I was and what was going on each year. Some years were joyful beyond measure, others were often too painful to remember. At this stage in my life, even the bad years are important to me because it helped to make me who I am.

When I was a child, Christmas time was very difficult for my Mother and Grandma as they had lost my Grandpa Bill the day after Christmas when I was only 14 months old. Each year I watched my family grow sad and heavy hearted during the holidays. Even so, they always made sure I had a good Christmas and I loved walking down the stairs to see a fire burning bright in the fireplace and finding lots of fun toys under the tree. I remember the music of Christmas. Bing Crosby's White Christmas, Ray Conniff Singers, Eddy Arnold, and even Herb Alpert and the Tijuanna Brass jamming the christmas tunes. I loved watching all the Christmas shows on television in the days before VHS. Rudolph, Santa Clause is Coming to Town, Frosty and the Little Drummer Boy were all worth the long wait to see each year. As an adult I loved to listen to Kenny Rogers Christmas Album and we loved watching "A Christmas Story" and it's a yearly tradition to watch Ralphie as he tries not to shoot his eye out.

I remember the years when my girls were little. I remember the excitement Christmas mornings when they would run to see what Santa had left them under the tree. I remember when Skylar was little and how the girls would wake him up to get him to go out with them to peek at their gifts. I remember the year that I was going to Beauty School and didn't have a spare cent. I remember that a very dear friend of mine chose to give my children a Christmas instead of buying gifts for themselves. They did the 12 days of Christmas and each night the doorbell would ring and we would open the door to a new gift. I still have ornaments that we had been given that year for our tree. I still use them to this day as a reminder of how far I have come and how blessed I have been. That friend had been a true angel and had answered my prayers for help.

There was the year that Skylar got a plastic green "Katar" (guitar). That was the same year that he got a tool box with real tools in it. Imagine my surprise when he pulled out a small hacksaw with a real blade in it and I loudly said to the parent who had given it to him..."A SAW...WHAT was SANTA THINKING!!!" and Sky said "Yeah what was he thinkin'...a wrencher and a bammer and a sawzer...WHAT was HE THINKING"

I looked at all the snowmen that I have built over the years. I think the most famous one was the year Lexie built hers in 2002. She grabbed a branch and stuck it in the lower front nether-regions and when we asked what that was protruding from Frosty's crotch she said..."It he Tail" We still laugh over that one.

I loved the time I was able to spend as a stay home Mom. I loved to sew and bake for the holidays. The kids loved to help decorate sugar cookies and then help eat them all just like I had done when I baked with my Grandma.

This year we were able to have all my kids here at the same time and even had Lexie's brother Brett here. It was the first time in almost 9 years that all of them had been together. I loved watching our grandkids as they got so excited to open their gifts. Chalyce's sweet little girl Sammy Jo opened her gift and when she saw her baby doll she said "WOW...that was on MY LIST!!!"

This year Lexie asked Santa for either a Goat or a 4 wheeler. She wonders daily which one Santa will bring. We are excited for her to see what Santa decides to bring her. It won't be long before she is all grown up and gone and I will truly miss having little kids in the house to enjoy the Christmas Spirit. As we are up to 11 grandkids now, I'm sure we will always have children around to help celebrate the season. Being a grandparent is such a blessing and I treasure every moment I have to spend with each of them. Life on the farm is pretty quiet. The horses are staying warm in the Barn, the chickens are snuggling up to their heat lamp and Myla insists on sleeping at the foot of any bed in the house. Stan always makes Christmas fun as he is an eternal kid at heart. I have truly enjoyed 6 Christmas Days with him and our family. Well, I have truly enjoyed the walk down memory lane and sharing some of my family's favorite memories. Merry Christmas.